A Kiss

So where in this life did I ever think it was about me? Why did I have that idea, where did it come from ? I’m Important?Fuck no the kids, the man, that is the issue!
Ok so I had a bad day, no a bad life!
Look you people in my life I am doing the fucking best I can! I can’t help it if you fucked up!
Ok.. I just try and make it better! I can not help it if you can’t pay your bills.
I can’t help that you got married to someome with no boobs dear.(ex Hubby)
I can’t fix your Tax problems cause you ignored the IRS for 5 years!
I Can’t fix it ya assholes.
I can only love ya for the people in my life that mean something to me.

I just want some respect for the job I do as the love in this mix.
Is that to much to ask?
A kiss with no promise.
A hug with no reward at the time.
A task done by me with no payment.
Your laundry clean by your bed.
Your books marked in your folder.
Your dinner done on time.
Your class chaperoned by me?
Your juice boxes picked up.
Your friends invited and cared for in this house.
Presents for your friends bought by me.
Driven home and not yelled at by me for being bad bad kid.
Signing homework just for you cause you were sleepy.
Presents for your teachers.
Hooking up your bra on your wedding day!( big deal)
Taking you and your friends to catch crabs?
Letting ya go to your own life.
Trusting and loving the man your with?(even though he is cute and ever snarky)
Then loving a little girl and have her say “ouch” when ya hug her.
Not fair , I want to give up, I want to give in to what ever force is pulling me.